Don't do it!!!!!!!!!!
Recently I went to the pub with some colleagues as a fare well gathering for a colleague. It was a hot sunny day and I did not drink to excess. 3-4 glasses of wine, a plate of chips and over a few hours.
I blacked out.
One minute we were talking about what we all thought, as children, what we would do as adults. This was about 5pm. I do not remember anything after that. The next thing I knew it was 9am in the morning.
Frightening.
This has only happened to me once before in my life, 12 years before. The circumstances were the same, a few drinks with friends in the sun. So MCAD people I can only assume that the heat is not good for us. Alcohol we should not have anyway but there we go!
It was probably the most frightening experience of my life. When I woke up, there were glucose tubes on the bed side where my husband had rubbed it into my gums to get my sugars up - how selfish of me to have done this to him. BUT how was I to know I would take such a dramatic turn.
At approximately 2pm the following day I started to vomit, and did so like clock work for the next 6 hours.
Was I pushing myself too hard at work and home? - yes but I find it difficult to turn off.
Should I have been drinking? - No, but as this had not happened to me since I was 17, I did not think.
Is it because of my kidneys? - Probably. I learnt a year ago that they do not work properly and probably never did but again in my naivety, I did not think anything of it.
What did I learn - Yes I may hurt myself temporarily (a few days - hopefully) but ultimately it was those who I love that I hurt. In my foolish way I did not think of them, what they must go through when my sugars drop.
I may almost be 30 but living with MCAD is difficult. All my life professionals have wanted to keep me in a bubble and been surprised I made it to 5. Obviously I thought I could take on anything as I had already beaten the odds. As I a wanting to start my on family has this lesson really hit home. I am not invincible, I have to be careful if I wish to continue defying the odds.
Look after yourself MCAD'ers. Our life is precious and we are lucky to get this far. Lets keep going!
